Job Interview

I had a job interview yesterday. I think it went well. The person that interviewed me actually worked with me before. So that was good. She said she didn't really need to interview me since she already knew my work. I'm interested in this job because of the 401K and health benefits. I know the receptionist has applied for the job and she has been there 8 years. A friend had this job before so that might be a little awkward since she was let go. So we will see. The job would be challenging since I have had a pud job for 3 years compared to my last job.

Andre'

The other day I was driving down the street when I had the strong urge to call Andre' and tell him something. Then I said to myself and I admit it was with sadness, I don't need to tell him anything and the desire was gone. God, you have been so faithful in taking that desire away. Thank you for always being there for me.

GP....A Night Owl? or a Crazy Bird?

GP has called several times for us to meet or I should say go dancing. I'm not going dancing, which means meet him somewhere at 9:30 at night. The only time he calls is when he's on his way out or already somewhere. It's like I'm a last minute thought. No, thank you. I keep telling him we have to meet first. It's been a few days since I've heard from him so maybe he realizes that we have to meet first and then see how it goes. And that's not what he's interested in.

John 13:7

This morning I was reading Beth Moore's blog and she had this verse.



Jesus said in John 13:7


You don't realize what I'm doing now but later you will understand.





Later.





LATER





L.A.T.E.R





you will understand.





How many times do we say I don't understand how that could happen or why?? I know I do. All the time. We all have things in our lives that we don't understand. But God is in control and someday we will understand. It may not be our timing but in God's timing.

Christmas Tree Going, Going, Gone. Well Almost.

I feel so good this morning! The Christmas decorations are down and have been put in the garage. We still have the real tree sitting on our deck but it's not in the house! The house is clean. Whahoo!! I got a new slipcover for the recliner and it looks so good. I also bought a new lamp and it's looks great. I'm thinking about moving the scrapbook stuff in the area behind the couch and making the scrapbook room a toy room. Maybe put some bean bags in there. So when my little guy comes over he will have a special place for his toys. I will also keep Grayson's puzzles and stuff she plays with upstairs in there. I would move my Lucy stuff into the big closet. Sounds like a winner to me. But I'll think some more about it.

We joined the Y this weekend. There was no joining fee this month and is very reasonable fee monthly. We are looking forward to using the Y.

Phil 4:13

This is one of my favorite verses. It brings me so much comfort. So much.



I can do all things through Christ who strenghtens me. Phil 4:13



This verse became part of my life when I lived in Sayre, Ok. I would go to bed each night crying and holding my bible not understanding the things I was going through. More on that another time. Reading my bible one night I found this verse and claimed it!



I can do all things through Christ. Without Him I am nothing. Weak. With Him I am strong! He gives me strength. I can face anything! And since that night in Sayre He has been more faithful than I ever could have imagine. Sayre was a turning point in my faith. I grew so strong in my faith and continue to grow. Yes, I have strayed, not been the person I should have been but God is always with me. He waits patiently for me to come back to His open arms.



God is Good, Good is Faithful. I'm so Blessed. I give Him the Praises and Glory!

What is wrong with MEN??

Is it just me?? Or does someone calling at 11:30p wanting to meet seem a little odd to you. GP had called around 8p and we had a good conversation. We made plans to meet on Sat night. Then he calls at 11:30p and says he's at 51st & Yale and did I want to meet him? UHHHH!!!NO I DON'T. He said he had good intentions but his timing was off. I don't think I'm getting out of bed meeting a stranger at 11:30p.
When he called earlier he said he worked this weekend but he got off at 9p and we could go dancing. I could pick the place. I said ok at the time but now I've realized we need to go back to just meeting somewhere earlier before we go dancing. We need to see if we even like each other after we meet in person. Then we can talk about going dancing. Yeah, then we can talk about doing other things. Let's just meet first.
I have meet people after enjoying conversations on the phone and then realized when meeting that there was no connection or attraction. So it's best to just meet in well lighted, lots of people around for that first time.

Haiti

It is so sad the news on Haiti. That would be so devastating. I think of all those people who have lost loved ones, their homes, their jobs...just wandering the streets. I don't have much to give but I did donate money through compassion. I'm so thankful for my blessings and pray for everyone in Haiti.

GP...I can be an idiot!

I'm off the dating site which means you 'hide' your profile so no one can see it. Remember GP that had called on Saturday. Well he called yesterday afternoon and we really had a good conversation. We were thinking about meeting last night but I had to chuck that idea because of my nails. Yes my nails...that's another story. Anyway I didn't remember that until I was driving and saw my nails so I thought no meeting anyone with these nails and Grace and I usually go to church on Wed. Well he called me back later in the evening. We were talking and he asked me if I liked to dance. Be still my heart! I said what?? Could he have said dancing?? He said again dancing. Do I like to dance!?! Of course I like to dance. So I very cool said yes and what kind of dancing are you talking about? He said swing! Be still my heart! Of course I like swing...hey i'm the one that went to Dallas and took dancingt lessons.
Then he said do you like boating? I again said what? He said again Boating? Be still my heart! Of course, I like boating. I'm the one that wants to live near the lake. He has a boat, house near the lake but building one next year. We talked some more and decided yes we needed to meet. So we might try tonite. He's going to call later. Meeting will tell alot. You can like someone on the phone but meeting them in person is a whole different ballgame. And I mean that. So we will see.

Off the Dating Site

I've decided to take a break from the dating site and concentrate more on me. I have so many things I want to do. I'm not sure how long I will take this sabbath and I may change to another site. I've scheduled some events with the meetups this weekend. I do that and then change my mind on going. I want to get my hair cut. I need a change

Faith

My faith is very strong. I could not have survived the things I have without a strong faith. I will talk more about my faith at another time. But for now I am claiming this verse this week:

He is your constant source of stability. He abundantly provides safety and great wisdom; He gives all this to those who fear Him. Isaiah 33:6

Depressed

DEPRESSSED that's all I can say.

What the Heck??

Well GP called and it was kind of a weird conversation. Right in the middle of the conversation, and I mean I'm talking, he says you seem like a nice girl and I had better let you go. I'll call you tomorrow and we can meet. He didn't call back. So was it something I said?? I can be weird. I can let things like this drive me crazy. He could have gotten busy. Right? Oh well I'm not going to let it bother me.



MG sent me a long email about wanting to see me more often and him sensing that I'm not wanting the same thing from him. I'll have to email him. So sad. The one that wants you is not the one you want.

UPDATE 1/13/10
MG sent me another email after I emailed him begging to let him come into my life. I'm sorry I just can't see wasting his time if there is nothing there.

GP never called back. And I'm ok with that. If he thinks he knows me by a 2 minute ramble and decided I wasn't the one he wanted to meet. Then I don't need to meet him.

My Date with MG

We went to a local Pasta Wharehouse and I enjoyed my meal. Conversation was good. Then we went to the play Legally Blonde. It was very good. MG had got tickets in the nose bleed section. After climbing 8 flights of stairs I again realized how out of shape I'm in. He kept telling me this is not where I ususally buy tickets. After the show he brought me home. I'm just not feeling it. If you're not feeling it you can't force it. Right??

While I was out with MG, GP left a message wanting to meet. I'll talk with him on the phone first and see if we want to meet. We have emailed each other so the next step is the phone. Gosh!! I hate first time on the phone or for that matter first time meeting. I usually meet someone at a restaurant that way they don't know where I live and I can get home. I had a guy one time wanting to meet at a park and I was like no I don't think so. Parks at sunrise or dusk with someone I don't know is not going to happen.

NEW JOB SOONER THAN I THOUGHT

Well only I could do this. I filled out an application for another job and then instead of faxing it to the company I faxed it to our main office. Yeah that's right. I knew I would do something like that. Boy sometimes I wonder about me.

Dating

Tonite I have a date with Jerry. I will only use a made up name to protect the innocent. They are innocent you know. Innocent in that they don't know me. Or don't know me well.

I hate this whole dating thing. I hate meeting someone new. I met Jerry off a dating site. Yes, a dating site. My son hates that. He said it was like buying a used car off the internet. I'm not sure about that. Do you ever really know someone?? Think about it. How am I suppose to meet someone if I don't go out to bars?? I've thought about it alot. I've joined meetups. More on that on another post.

Well anyway we are going out to dinner and a play. I've gone out with Jerry before. I'm not just well lets say attracted to him. Don't get me wrong I know looks aren't everything but there has to be some kind of chemistry. Doesn't there? Jerry is very nice and I didn't have the heart to say no. I have ISSUES I know.

I Never Thought I Would

I never thought I would be over 50 and single.

No, I didn't.



I never thought I would be "out there" as George from Seinfield would say.

No, I didn't. I was sure this wouldn't happen.



I never thought I would be contemplating a job change at this time in my life.

No I didn't.



I never thought I would be writing a blog.

No, I didn't. But hey I always wanted to be a writer.



I never thought I would be nearing retirement, okay I still have a few years left, and not be ready for it financially.

No, I didn't.



I never thought I would have a pug (my daughter's dog actually) that thinks I'm his girlfriend.

No, I didn't. I was really thinking more of a human.

I never thought my heart would be broken into so many pieces that I didn't know how I would survive. How does one survive without a heart? Would I be able to pick the pieces up and make a heart for my body? Would I need superglue this time? Would I get over the heartbreak this time? Time will tell.
No,I didn't.



I just never thought I would.