The Dreaded Friday

Today my boss drove down from the city to spend the day with me.  At 5:45pm she gave me a pay cut!  Yes, a pay cut! I've worked for this company for three years and never have received a raise.  Was I expecting a pay cut? Yes, unfortunatley, I knew it was bound to happen or close the doors. Business has decreased. So down that in April she let our marketer go. Now I do the scheduler, marketer, on call and my job as director for less pay.  It didn't help when she also told me I had to let the weekend oncall girl go which is my daughter.  I worried more about her than me.  I told myself that's why you don't have family work for you.  When something like this happens it almost more than you can bear.  You never want your child to hurt or want no matter how old they are.

Of course, I cried a few tears on my way home thinking how will we survive??  But then I realized it's done and I have to give it God. It's out of my hands. He is in control.


There are people worse off than me!

I have a job!

Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for Him; do not fret when men succeed in their ways, when they carry out their wicked schemes. Psalm 37:7

Charales Spurgeon said:
God is too good to be unkind.
He is too wise to be confusedl
If I cannot trace His hand I can
Always trust His heart.

Julie Clinton said:
Time is a commodity, and we as women have to make the most of it. God's got your life in the palm of His hand and in His heart.  If you wait patiently for His plan to unfold, for His dream for you to be revealed, you can live and walk in the confidence of knowing He is with you every step of the way.

Most of the time I cause the pain I go through. I'm not patient, I can't wait, I can't trust, Hurry, Hurry seems to be my motto!  Several, several months ago I told Andre I wanted to get back to the basics. A couple of weeks ago I told Starla I wanted to get back to the basics.  Now, exactly what about the basics I was referring to I'm not sure.  I just knew I wanted to slow down and enjoy life more.  Maybe I was tired, wanting someone to take care of me for once.  No, that wasn't it but it did cross my mind. Ok a lot since I'm getting older.  They both asked me what the "basics were".  I'm still not sure.  I just know that I have to step back and let God have complete control of my life.  One thing I have learned that God has a way of preparing us for what is going to happen.  He started preparing me when I was talking about the basics.